Friday, October 26, 2007
~ 7:16 PM ~
hellos! (as you can see, i ain't as high and happy as before)
today is the last day of school which marks the end of 2E'2007. mrs tee let us watch romeo and juliet in the morning. the movie was overall quite nice and touching just that their conversations were kinda hard to understand.
had break at 10 before carrying on the last 30 minutes or so of the movie. HBH was just chatting like usual and somehow, the topic about our subject combination started. started thinking about the days or even hours left before we officially promote to secondary 2 express. and yeahs, as expected, i cried. started crying thinking about the few hours left before our separation and i was really really sad.
after break, we continued the movie. movie screening ended at 11.10. while i was walking back to class, i look at my watch and realised that time was flying really really fast. how i wish that time would just stop at that moment when we are still a class.
back in class, i sat on yueyoong's desk, i look at my classmates for the last time. watching them play, watching them laugh. that would be the last time i could enjoy and feel the happiness of them. started crying all over again. i just couldn't bear this class. over the past 2 years that we spent together, i felt it hard to let go.
i wanted to take pictures. a lot a lot of them. but, there isn't a chance to do so. mdm siti came to class. she was really really upset because some of them ponned the first 4 periods of school. mdm siti cried in class. it really broke my heart. i miss her smile, i miss her laughter.
cleaned up the classroom next. that was the last time i see the whole class doing something together. i was sweeping the floor. lawrence and aaron came to ask me why mdm siti was so sad. was explaining to them and i just started crying again. i just couldn't control my tears. it just flowed.
couldn't control at all. after school, i went to place our report books in mdm siti's locker. met hoiching, louiza, yang yu, syuhaidah and lava at the first floor. and there, i cried again. hugged hoiching, louiza and syuhaidah. and it made me cry even more. there's so much unwillingness in me to let them go. i just hope that we could continue hugging. and i made louiza cry by crying.
met mdm siti at the staff room. hugged her cause she saw me crying. she asked me not to cry but yet, she started crying as well. she was worried. worried for those guys who ponned school. the consequences are disastrous. they could be caned. she blames herself for being too nice, she blames herself for not teaching them right. and there, my heart broke once again.
mdm siti knows the whole story behind it. she was worried that they will be caned and she really broke down. that was the first time i saw her cry like that. she went off awhile later. charis and i met miss chui at the general office. hugged her and say goodbye. went tiong with charis cause we didn't see our seniors and i needed to collect my passport.
today is the last time i am going to see 2E and the teachers till class chalet. i really really love my class and i don't want separation. =((((((((((((((((((
anyways,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SYUHAIDAH! =D
